Positives of Unemployment: Final Chapter

If you are new to this blog, I have done a few prior posts on unemployment and its effects.

Here are the older posts....

Negatives of Unemployment

Positives of Unemployment Part 1

Positives of Unemployment Part 2

This "Final Chapter" is just going over my goals and new outlooks on life.

My main goal is to work hard enough to get into the National Guard. It would be an honor to serve in this country. It is always something in the back of my mind that I would have wanted to do, but didn't think it was possible. I have my mind set. I need to lose 45lbs, and I would be set to enlist. My biggest fear was getting deployed when I was younger, but I see everything in a different light now.

Other goal, well of course to get a job. I would LOVE to keep my car,

because it is the second love of my life <3

2004 Hyundai Tiburon GT V6

I mean, I don't think I would lose my car, but we seriously won't have enough money for our bills next month, so I need a job ASAP. Atleast making $400.00 a month and we'd be fine. I am already claiming bankruptcy on just myself because of credit card debt, but oh well. Money has always been an evil and addicting thing to me. I'd be better off without credit cards. Now that I have learned there is more to life then STUFF, I am happier.

I have always spend time with my family on holidays, birthdays etc, but I would like to be around more often. I have an amazing relationship with my Mom. We talk ALL THE TIME. haha. We'll just randomly call eachother to vent like every other day! We've been able to talk more now that I don't work. And I am not miserable to talk with anymore.

I don't know what my future holds, obviously, but I am not scared. Bring it on. It's life. Everyone goes through some type of bullshit, you just have to SHUT THE HELL UP and deal with it :)

Someone ALWAYS has it worse. I am not lying in my death bed, so my life is amazing!

Positives of Unemployment Part 2

If you're new to my blog, and would like to know where this started,

check out my previous blog post first :)

http://beautifullyfrantic.blogspot.com/2011/05/positives-of-unemployment-part-1.html

Ah yes, now where was I? Hating on my job..(understatement..)

Anyhooo, I did find PLENTY of positives being unemployed.

(Let me get this out of the way, money sucks, I've always had a lot of credit card debt, and now I can't afford to pay any of my cards....)

With that being said...(DRUMROLL)..

I found NEW hobbies. I now enjoy blogging. Before when I used to blog, I kind of did it to gain attention and possibly get some free products out of it. I never read any one else's blog or left comments. Whole different story now. I love reading what is on someone else's mind! I've learned so many different things, whether its fitness or beauty related. I love showing people appreciation for their efforts and success :)

Cooking. I hated cooking because it requires so much time and effort for a homemade meal. I now take pride in making dinner for us, instead of my fiance getting in the door and throwing in chicken nuggets and french fries. I appreciate my ability to cook and have dinner prepared.

Fitness and Health. Well, I've always been the girl subscribed to EVERY fitness magazine and online website, but never used the advice. I was always too mentally tired to do anything. I would try to work out in the mornings before work, and I would be too drained mid way, that I stopped. I now work out every single day. I've lost 15lbs and feel so much better. I take the time to watch what I am actually feeding my body and have learned ALOT. (More on what pushed me to pursue fitness so hard later)

There will be a part 3 - sharing my new goals :)

Boots and Mittens <3

Positives of Unemployment Part 1

If you read my last post on the "negatives" of unemployment, I noted that some people view not having a job as a "party." I will for sure say that there is nothing "fun" about it. The name of my post refers to the positives of being jobless. You always have to see both sides of a situation, and do your best.

Story Behind It All

First of all, I chose to quit my job at The Hartford. I worked as a customer service representative for AARP Health clients. This would be the 50+ crowd. The reason I left was because of the clients. I had it made there, business wise. My bosses loved me and always had me doing little projects. My review I received was incredible, not to mention the raise was nice. But, despite all that, I couldn't get passed the miserableness of these people who had to call just to bitch at someone they didn't know.

I started growing hatred for old people. Hate is a very strong word, and I try my best to stay away from it, but this was a true feeling. What was strange is that I loved older people. I used to volunteer at a rehabilitation center, and they always loved when I visited. 80% of the callers just felt like they could call you names; (stupid, idiot, good for nothing, a waste, etc) Who the hell gave them the right to do this? Worse yet, we couldn't do anything about it, except ask them to stop, only for them to laugh at us in return...

Now my personality did not help the situation. I am always kind and loving, and try to stay away from conflicts as much as possible, so that did not help. I knew I had to quit when I started hating my life. I never wanted to do anything but sleep,eat and spend money.(that i didn't actually have). Hence why my weight went to 202lbs, and in severe debt. Not to mention, doctor visits to get put on depression medication. Seriously?

I don't have anything against medication, please don't think that. I am actually prescribed to anxiety medication. Anyways, I also started crying in my car on the way to work, in the parking lot, on lunch breaks, and at home at night. No one wants to live like this. I knew my breaking point was reached when I actually broke down on a call to a bitter old man who was only upset because I was the second person he was connected to. Really? Well that was it, I gave a three weeks notice, and just did the bare minimum at work for those three weeks....

To Be Continued....

Negatives of Unemployment

For many people unemployment is either a very frightening thing

or something someone dreams about.

I can understand being scared when you have bills to pay,

medical needed and quite possibly other mouths to feed.

Situations in life are handed to you to deal with. It depends on HOW you handle them.

Now I first must say that my unemployment was by choice. I quit because I needed to. No one will ever understand, and I don't expect anyone to. We all do what we "think" is good for ourselves right?

("Think" is in quotes because I believe our lives are already mapped out)

Anyways, I will state why unemployment shouldn't be something someone dreams about...

(and you don't have a government check given to you, keep this in mind)

First, you are more than likely to not have any savings to fall back on. If you do, awesome, you were one of the "smart" ones when watching your money. If you are like me, it sucks.

Second, the first week will be AMAZING. No responsibility to be anywhere, not controlled by anyone and you plan your day as you want. Now after that first week, you have already done EVERYTHING you possibly had to do in your mind, and now you are left with everday chores, and seriously, not the funnest thing in the world.

Third, Personally, I feel like a bum. I sleep in a little, make myself breakfast, go to the gym, eat lunch, shower, watch Netflix, make dinner, and um go to bed. I don't feel very productive to society.

Lastly, depending on your situation, you may end up homeless =)



Now, there is a point to this posting, I will be later posting why I feel unemployment was quite possibly the best thing I ever chose to do.

First Day For Change?

Well this is my first official day of (chosen) unemployment. My mind could no longer handle the useless garbage I was hearing on a daily basis. The timing felt right, and I just need to make sure I use my time wisely. I do feel that this is a better decision then losing my mind completely, that would be embarrassing.

What did I do today? Hmm well I felt I was pretty productive. My mood was positive and I finally felt some energy. Though this does happen from time to time when I am on top of the world for a few days and then I crash and hate everything/one around me. Horrible right?

Well I finally sat down to eat my breakfast and started my "anti-depression" medication. It is told that I may be a manic-depressive person, well what the hell? No side effects so far, so we are doing alright. Then I wanted to go on the Internet to check my Facebook (its disgustingly addictive) BUT my Internet was down, so I chose to go to the gym early. Did about thirty minutes on the treadmill. Baby steps for me, I am just getting back into it.

Then I went to the post office, I officially know where all the old people hang out when they are not bitching and complaining! Ha!(inside joke from where I used to work.) I love nice and sweet old people!! Then I visited the Allentown Bartending School. It may be a new direction for me, but nothing is set in stone. Lastly, I took a trip to the grocery store. All I needed was a jar of brown gravy, and I walked out with gravy, 3 boxes of mac & cheese and some bagel bites. Yummy. Not the healthiest choices, but good in moderation!

Of course I spent some time crafting and watching The OC. Only two episodes today. Even thought I have probably seen all the episodes about 20 times. It's my guilty pleasure. I have also gotten a hold of Photoshop CS5 and have a book that is teaching me some tips and tricks. Got through chapter 3, no too bad. I did make dinner tonight. Some homemade meatloaf, noodles and corn. Toby enjoyed dinner, he always does when I actually cook. I even did a load of laundry. Them we started a new show; Dexter, since we got our Netflix back. It's okay. Toby said it best; "It is like a cross between American Psycho & Nip Tuck."

Well I set a bedtime for myself, and I want to stick with it. I think I need to have more of a steady sleep schedule to help with everything so I chose 12-8am. We shall see how it works.

Love & Hugs;
Miss Frantic <3